I’ma be real right now.

I honestly don’t know who there’s for me anymore. I don’t know who I can turn to. I just don’t know. All these so called friends of mines are just turning into acquaintances.. well in my eyes. That whole “I’ll always be here for you” bullshit is a lie, which is one of the reasons why I keep my shit bottled in all the time.

My mom and I used to be real tight. I mean, we still are. But her priorities aren’t straight right now, which is making me want to distant myself from her. I love her, but I need to be her top priority. Not an option, not a second choice. I know she’s better than that and I understand that she deserves all this “me” time. But I’m starting to lose my respect for her and that’s something I don’t want.

So, who’s really there for me? Shit. I don’t even know why I give a fuck.

I go through all my issues by myself anyway. I was born alone, I’ll die alone.

All I got is myself.