I’m so fed up with life and it frustrates me. I’m at the point where I can’t take it. I hate not being happy like everyone else. I hate always being mad at the world and I honestly can’t control that. I don’t know why I’m like this and I hate it.

I hate the fact that I always push people away and all they wanna do is be there for me. It’s not that I don’t want someone there, it’s just I’m used to being by myself. I’m used to dealing with situations on my own.

When I’m all alone, I think about what friends I do have. And to think about it, I don’t have that many.. which is fine with me. But it bothers me sometimes. Like who is really there for you? You think someone’s there for you but then in a quickness, they start to act all brand new. You think you can open up to someone but then they start to think you’re asking for sympathy. But in reality, you just need someone to talk to.

I’m just gonna be distant from everyone. I’m at the point where I don’t care about anyone. I’m sick of doing this and that for people and they can’t even do shit for me.

I’m done.